There have been many a realization over the last few months. As the weather has warmed (slowly albeit typical), I have also warmed up to me - figuring out who I am in the grand scheme and looking to the next few months with optimism.
I've finally figured out the direction in which I should take my career. Through an interview process for a job within my current company, I actually found that there is a happy medium between where I am now and what that intensive research-laden job would have been. I found that I really do like working for the client, and making them happy in the end is who I am trying to impress, not some person who's assigned to be my supervisor. I've found that the writing and 'the meat' of such projects are what I really love doing, and that I can make a career for myself out of focusing in on those areas, of which I both enjoy and excel in. So, I've taken the first steps in trying to make this a reality. It's not something that will happen tomorrow or even 2 months from now, but it will happen and I will persevere and use my resources to get myself to that place where I am content and not constantly looking for the NEXT better job.
And, things within my personal life changed a little as well. I spent the winter getting to know myself a bit more and recognize where my faults are in my pursuit of finding that relationship with the right person. In fact, I avoided many chances to even try and find that someone again. Whether it's out of fear, general boredom or old feelings I can't quite let go of, I've still yet to dissect. And given the events of this weekend, I think that I might have to get to that sooner or later to also avoid ending up right where I started.
